I'm here but in a funk

Just wanted to apologize for not blogging much..........I'm really taking Harper's sudden weaning very hard. I wasn't ready emotionally or physically. The guilt, bittersweet sadness, and engorgement are quite overwhelming. To top it off, PPAF showed with a vengeance on Monday. Yes, I was anxious for AF to return, but I really didn't want it to show in this manner. Harper's sudden disinterest in nursing from nursing 3-5 times a day is definitely what made AF return. I wondered if AF changing the composition of milk could have caused her to wean so quickly. Interestingly enough, Harper sucks EBM right now in a cup so that rules that reasoning out. Please forgive my absence and know that each of you are in my thoughts and prayers.